Tuesday, September 25, 2007

Trying to get by

Everyday I wake up thinking to myself that its going to be a better day than the one before..Positive outlook to start my day, right?....That is how it starts but reality sets in, I begin thinking of all the things that need to be done, paid tended to, then a sort of heaviness starts to set in.
My life hasn't been an easy one but on the other hand it hasn't been one that I regret. Of course there are things that I wish I could do over, things that I wish would have never happened and things that have yet to happen.
My children are my joy, my accomplishment.....my life...I live for them. There have been times that I have thought of myself as being a jinx..everytime I try to pull myself up, I get knocked down. Its like the old saying..."can't win for losing" and " 3 steps forward and 2 steps back"
I have my days of feeling like lying in bed, watching soaps and game shows and without warning start sobbing...then there are the days I have a set plan to what I am going to do and how I am going to do it.
Daily struggles along with daily triumphs are a part of life, of everyones life, and especially my life. It is what we do about them that matter..Here I am doing my daily routine and trying to make my life have more of a purpose, to be an example to my children and to make them proud to have me as their mother.